The last few weeks....

Working long hours the first two weeks on December in order to take off the 17th and 18th to take my dad to another town to have surgery to fix his fractured sternum. Then the stress of those two days. Then the complete exhaustion, both mentally and physically. I am still trying to get my level of energy back up.

I wanted to come on here and post a big blog about the last two weeks, then sat here not sure how to start or what to type.. just know that I am glad that my dad is no longer in pain with every movement.

Today he has been montioring his oxygen levels with a pulse oximeter that we bought at the store last night. The numbers have stayed between 94 and 97 all day.  The day after this surgery, before they released him from the hospital they were concerned about his oxygen levels, so they sent him home with oxygen tanks and a machine! The machine that has a hook up for his CPAP machine at night. 

Anyway, I am going to go and throw some frozen pizza in the oven for dinner. And maybe make so more coffee. Need to kick my brain into gear and finish some homework.

Later all and Blessed Be
Tina

Relieved, but hesitant

Yesterday I posted a blog about how I feel like my partner does not 'know me' anymore. Well, tonight we were talking about things (not about last night, yet)... ok, let me set the story...

She was out smoking in the garage, I went to say hi.. and she said that she seen something outside. I could not see anything.. I made a joke about it being a fairie. She said no, I don't believe in them. Ok.

A few minutes later same thing, went out to talk to her and she said that the pair of eyes was closer but as soom as the door opened it was gone. I still could not see anything. 

In the kitchen a few minutes later, she confessed that she did believe in faries but did not want people to think she was crazy. I told her, that off everyone to talk to about those things it would be ME. I do believe! So she told me that the eyes were too big to be fairie or brownie. I said maybe a "sock" troll, since I had just put the socks in the wash.  She thought I was joking, I was not.

 Anyway, we had a few words. And I finally told her that just like last night I feel that she does not 'know me' anymore. If she did she would know that I believe in creatures, and that I don't freak out about certain things. The one thing lately that I have freaked out about is her being home for me, when she is home. Which means dont constantly talk/text  to your friends. 

I did suggest to her tonight, that maybe if she talked to me as much as she did her friends she would be able to remember 'who I am'.

I hope that what I said to her tonight sunk in. I don't like living with someone who treats me like a stranger but says they love me.  The emotional anguish on top of everything else lately is so not fun.

Well, I am going to go and put the socks in the dryer and I hope that if the troll takes on, it is one of mine that has a hole in it. I would willing sacrafice one.

Tina

a stranger.. but there in bed next to me

sometimes, especially in the past few months,, I feel like my partner of over 5 years does not know me anymore...

I want to run away... I NEED a break!

have ya ever had the thought about running away from it all... well I want to.. this week has been shit,, and it is only Wednesday! Don't get me wrong, I love all the people I live with.. but I need a break! I need a break from being the only one to do dishes, I need a break from having to juggle homework vs. dinner and dishes! Last night was the topping on the cake! I blew up! Did I get homework done? NO I did not! Did dishes get done? NO, I was busy with a class chat, and fixing dinner! at the same time! It was when the boy decided to yell at me about laundry, when I am trying to listen to the teacher, that my night when from stressfull to terrible! anyway, I have a migraine today, but am here at work... lovely... (being sarcastic people... it is not a lovely day!)

 

oh, last night was one of those occasions that if I did not pull away and leave, it would have been more than just a whooping on the buttocks...

 

so, dad and I went to a restraunt had some cake and iced tea (him) pie, brandy septerater & some blended irish cream drink (me). after the irish cream drink i was relaxed enough to go home.

Temper Tantrum

Usually we have a space heater like this.

The is Emma aka Heater Hog

So the title of this blog is temper tantrum

What happened is that my dad is here and he has a 360degree heater.

So we unplugged the one above

And plugged in his:

Emma was NOT impressed!

I call this look:

"Really??? I can't not lay in front of THIS?!"

She then decided to NOT LOOK at me!

Really Emma? It is going to be like that?

She then turned her back to me:

She kinda turned when I called her name.

She was TOTALLY throwing a temper tantrum!

Needless to say I had to go and get the other heater,

and plug it back in.

We only use the 360 one everynow and then.

The white heater is the back in use.

Emma is happy again.

Our Turkey Day.

So. The ex husband is in town visiting his family for the holiday.  Brought his new girlfriend. I don't really care one way of the other about him or his girl friend, but he needs to spend time with his first born child. Who just so happens to be my son, who is 15 now. 

First I had to deal with drama from the wife (mine), she does not like my ex... um news flash NEITHER DO I!! hence the reason why we are not together... don't give me a bunch of stress, I am stressing too!!

Then, he asks if I could bring the boy out to his dads house the next day. I should have said no, but being polite I said I would. The next day dawns.... which so happens to be Thursday aka. Thanksgiving Day aka. Turkey Day.  The boy took forever to wake up and by the time he did, I was entrenched in cleaning the kitchen, starting the turkey, and cooking a Gluten Free Pumpkin Drop Cake:

I had lots of dishes to do as the pots and pans have been stacking the last couple of days... that is another reason why the dish that this cake (and the suffing) is cooked in were picked up at Family Dollar. $1.50 for two pans... steel! haha

Then it came time and I had to get the Gluten Free Stuffing in  the oven.

The last few years when roasting a turkey I also make a stock of the neck and other inards that come with the bird. I don't use those organs just the stock to make the stuffing. I had to do two stuffings this year. One gluten free and one regular boxed.

I did cheat and make instant potatoes. But anyway... my turkey turned out awesome!!

It was so moist.... still moist later when I when to put it away...

Our dinner was not much more than just turkey, potatoes, stuffing, and cranberry sauce... but no one complained. What a good day.

All in all, the boy never did make it to his dads famiily. We tried calliing, but his phone was either off or dead. 

So today, he calls and then coming by and has the nerve to ask if I will take the boy all the way out to his dads, so I said no. I am busy with homework and housework today. I feel proud of myself!!

T



Professional nitpicking

*sigh*

The boss is being nitpicking... not to be mean, not to be hard.... but to teach me "professionally".  I appreciate his honestly.. and I really don't mind the nitpicking... I am learning new things about the world of corporate taxation everyday!!

It seems funny to think that two years ago the term taxes or tax season sent shivers of fear down my spine... now - not so much. I don't fear the taxes! I want to learn as much as I can... there IS SO MUCH to taxes... both individual and corporate.

Well, back to it.
T

Holiday's are a'coming....

I am sitting here at work (yeah I know I am supposed to be working, but had to take a break and put a thought down), and listening to the receptionist talk to clients. A client left and said "Happy Holidays!" She said thanks.

Then it reminded me of last year.... she would gripe and complain (after the client left and if no other clients were here) if they said Happy Holidays instead of Merry Christmas.

Great now I get to listen to it again this year. I will expand more on this later.. gotta get back to work...

Using the Pensieve

This blog is more just to get thoughts out in a pensieve type of way.

As I was getting ready for bed last night, I made a joke to the other half that went along the lines of "are you sure you are not bi?" she replies 'I am bi." We have been together for over 5 years and this is the first time that she has said that to me. Then the conversation went on...
She: I told you, I am sure I told you.
Me: Don't think so.
She: Well I know I was talking to someone about this.

All in all, it is not a bad thing nor was it a bad conversation. Just a realization of things.


Anyway, the point is... I know that there are certain male actors or types on men that interest her. There are certain actors or types of men that interest me too... not so much as to turn me on (like she was last night).
For me it is mostly the voice....

OK, usage of pensieve is done for the moment. I am at work and need to get back to it...

Dedication to My Mom

I wrote this "Dedication to My Mom" a few years ago.


Mom,
I still feel you around the house,
At times, I hear you laughing,

Every time I see a mouse in the house,
I remember the time you threw your books at one. (and killed one!)

I miss watching movies with you,
As you would drive us all nuts by rewinding,
And rewinding your favorite parts. (by the way Mom, Kenny is now doing this!!)

You are a hero to me, the bravery you showed
While fighting a losing battle, I will never forget!!

~~~~~~~~~~~
On November 11, 2001 my mom passed away after a long hard fight with cancer. I miss her dearly.

Mom
I Love You,
I Miss You
Tina








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My productive day has come to a halt

Usually, when I am sitting here doing taxes I come to a point that I need to talk to the boss about something. Not this morning though. All I had to do was finish up a few partnership returns. Now that I have done that, I can start back in again on a return I have been working on for over a week for a farm/ranch. Problem is I can not remember where I left off..... I did not leave a note like a usually do!! So upset with myself and now I have to look over the papers to see if I can refresh my memory.


On a separate note; still sending lots of positive vibes toward the place I interviewed with on Tuesday. I WANT THAT JOB!!! I could so grow experience-wise with that job! Plus to be able to have medical insurance on myself and my son.... MUCH NEEDED!!! So, lots of positive vibes to the two ladies that interviewed me!!!

Oh, a separate note.... had a hot shower this morning!!! The hot water heater has been out for about a week. I did not want to put another one in until we could see if we could find the leak.. no luck on finding leak... until the old water heater was moved yesterday..... seems when they put the linoleum down they put it down and then cut around the water heater to make a snug fit... so when the water heater (which come to find out was installed in 1996!!!) decided to stop working, it leaked right down that cutup area... *sigh* there are some flooring guys coming this afternoon to look and see how much it will cost to repair....

So you see that I REALLY NEED THAT JOB!! It starts out at $6 more per hour than I am making now!!!

LOTS OF POSITIVE VIBES, THOUGHTS, AND PRAYERS!!!!

Tina

Tornado

This is Tornado. I am not sure what she was doing in the picture, probably meowing to get my attention, and looking at the other cat Crystal up on the desk.  By the way, she got her name because when she was a kitten, she would come tearing down the hallway, curve into the living room and into the bottom shelf of a coffee side table.  The bottom shelf is where my dad kept his magazines; so several times a week we would come home to magazines all over the living room. It was not until I witnessed her do it one day that we figured out what she was doing. Like a tornado she blows in, wrecks the place and goes away....

This girl is a character. She loves to spend time out in the garage, does not matter time or temperate. She wants to be out there.

My only concern with her currently is that she is getting hair clumps, I am not sure if she is too fat to clean her fur properly or what, but we have been having to brush her more often and try to cut out some of the clumps.

Well, my Wednesday is drawing to a close. I need to work on homework as I was too busy with scouting stuff and popcorn ordering, but I also need to go to bed at a decent time. So in 5 minutes when it is the boys bed time it will be mine as well.

Blessed Be
T

P.I.T.A.

This is P.I.T.A. she is about 4-5 months old now. She is a hoot to have around.  She is definitely my other half's dog. When Momma walks into the room the tail on PITA goes crazy and she usually runs up to her Momma.

Oh, she loves to go outside!! And as such I was wondering the other day about what she would do when it snowed. Well this morning I find out. The first time I let a few of the dogs out I could not stick around, but the second time (only like 20 minutes later) she took off running from the back room and did a few laps around the yard. The snows was not even 1/4 inch, but she seemed to be loving it.

Blessed Be
T

How to vent so that others can understand me?

Well, I am not asking this for a pity party or anything. But the people close to me don't understand accounting and taxes, so when I need to vent and rant, they don't understand the language that I am speaking. So needless to say when I am done ranting and venting I do not feel relieved, rather I feel like I am complianing about something that they can not help with. I don't need or want their help, that is just the feeling that I get.

Seriously.....

I worked for hours on coding and entering a balance sheet and income statement for a partnership taxes today... just to find out that the backup quickbooks I was given was not the correct one.  the boss tells from now on to ALWAYS look at the bank registers first! Well, thanks!!! That is what I get for assuming you knew what you were giving me!! Luckily I was able just to quickly code the new bs and p&l to update the entry that I inputted.  So tomorrow maybe I can make headway with getting the taxes done.

Off I go to type up the difference between managerial and financial accounting for an essay for class. What I really want to do is go to bed, my left lef has decided tonight to swell up nicely. It is becoming an aspect of my menstral cycle, I hate it!!

Tax Season

Tax Season, yes capitilized like a title because it is. It is the time of year where bookkeepers, tax professionals, CPA's and many others are kept busy. Sometimes they push themselves to work 12-15 hour days just to get people's taxes complete.  The only other time that I have worked Tax Season in a CPA office was about 9 years ago! I did not like it; let me repeat I DID NOT LIKE IT! And that bugged me! I like working with numbers. Sometimes I even love it. So when I made a choice to go back to college and further my education. I thought really hard and even though TAX SEASON scared me, the rest of working at the CPA's was great!!! I wanted to provide that service to people. So my aim is to become a CPA.  A 'certified public accountant'. 

I have completed just recently my Bachelors of Science in Accounting.  I did really well in school. Graduated with a 3.96 GPA. I was honored to be asked to become a member of my colleges Sigma Beta Delta Honor Society. I want to continue to acheive a Masters degree and then study for the CPA exam.  I am thinking that I should have gone for the CPA exam first. But I know that with the Masters I will have more knowledge under my belt (along with my loans! augh).  What brought this on was that there is only one CPA at the firm (always has been just one!!) that can sign off on everything!! He is one the pushed to have me part-time when he found out I was going to school. I digress.... I was thinking that if I can get my CPA license than I can help the flow move better. But I did some reaserch and found out that I am on the best road that I can be. Get the Masters in Business Admin concentration in Accounting first. That would guarentee enough college hours to sit the exam. So I had better study hard, learn lots, and keep a positive outlook!

Speaking of positive outlook~  I am working part time at the same CPA firm that I did back 9 years ago. I am surviving so far this Tax Season.  I am learning a lot. It is a rush when you can input a corporations nubmers in the tax program and have the balance sheet match and have the income be the same as the financials!! RUSH I tell ya!! What really happens is there are several different programs that the office uses. But the accounting one is supposed "to flow" into the tax program.  There are some things that don't and you have to input them, such as depreciation  and owners disbursements and draws.
YES nice feeling to be able to complete a tax return and KNOW it is correct to the best of the data provided!!

Well, gonna pay a few bills online as well as truck registration then turn in.  9 more days till Tax Season is over! This week is going to be hell!!! No, positive outlook!!! Not hell, just Tax Season! hahahahahahaha I have my hay co-op job which has a deadline the same day as tax day; I have a college class that just started. So essays due Wednesday, Monday, and then Wednesday. Busy, busy, busy week!!!

Signing off now... Merry Meet, Merry Part, until we Meet Again.

Blessed Be.
Tina