Man do I have some catching up to do...
Day 9 - July 9th... very busy day! both at work and at home doing a college assingement.. did not stop until about 9p.m. by then I was so stressed and wounded up.. that I could not go to bed right away. Dad had gone to Elko Thursday evening, Suzanna was in bed as she had to wake up at 2 the next morning... so i decided to go and watch tv or a movie.. I watched Angels & Demons.. I have been wanting to watch that movie, just have not had the chance.. what a good movie!! now I want to read the book,,, I know it is usually the other way around book first then movie.. but anyway,, my boss has read the books and he says the book #3 is good!! The Lost Symbol.. or the Last Symbol.. I can't remember..
July 10,, Michelle's wedding day... I had a lazy morning.. I should have put gas in the truck before Suzanna got off work but I didn't - it was too hot to run around I wanted to go home and get some research going on my assingment for the next day.. so that is what I did.. Suzanna got home about 1pm, showered, and then we went got gas and her something to eat.. left town about 2:15.. we got to Elko just after 4pm, but Michelle would not start with out us.. so Steph was all bent out of shape! biatch!!! Reception was ok,,, too many people.. too many giggling young ladies.. too many times of Jim (the groom) saying that me & suzanna were his favorite lesbian aunts!!! ggrrrr!! i am more than that! I hate, HATE, it when people just see me as a lesbian!! I am more than that!! Suzanna is more than that!! if he would have been saying favorite aunts,, would have been different - but no he had to keep saying the lesbian thing!! anyway, that rant over! hahaha
Anyway, I wrote a blessing in their wedding card.. I will post it later tonight.. i had suzanna read it and she said I was a shit!! hahahah hehehehe.. there is nothing pagan or wiccan about what i wrote!!! it sounds like an Irish Blessing! hehehe I even put God in there, instead of Goddess & God.. I put God, just God....
Left Elko about 7.. got home.. suzanna had to go straight to bed as she had to get up at 2 again!! So what did I do??? I watched Angels & Demons again!!! and started a new cross stitch.. this is one that kenny picked up at a craft store a while back.. eventually I can work on my dragon again! oh after the movie I was ready to go to bed.. went to the restroom first, was in there reading Harry Potter #7 until 1:45... sheesh!!
July 11 - Sunday.. another lazy morning for me as I did not get to bed till 1:45.. suzanna got up at 2.. so i did not really sleep until 2:15-2:30.. then when I did get up, I had to read HP#7!! had to finish!! could not think of anything else! not my college assingment not eating nothing until it was done! this is only the second time of reading #7..
got a call from a good long time friend about 1-2 pm.. I have known her since 3rd grade.. ours dads have known each other longer... i met her because i went to the wedding where her mom got married to my dads friend.. well she called to say that her dad had died on Saturday.... what a shock!!!!!!! he was always such a good guy! dependable, knowledgeable, macguyver like mechanic....
as my dad was still in elko till that evening.. i called my sister and told her that way we could decided wether to tell dad now or wait until he got home... we decided to tell him then as i did not want anyone else to call later while he was driving or something.. so my sister told him...
the rest of the day was spent working to keep my mind off of the loss of a great person!!! RIP Ralph
July 12 - Day 12... Monday.. dad talked to Ralphs wife and found out more of what happened and found out that the funeral was Friday..
So I decided to call Kenny and tell him what happened.. I told my ex first, and then I told Kenny.. that is the first time that it was really hard to tell someone.. not even telling my sister was as hard as telling Kenny!!
July 13- Tuesday.. was doing ok, until my friend just came in to see about some food to settle her stomach with... she has to take her daughter in to see "papa" and she is nervous about what is going to happen.. her daughter is usually so outspoken and delightful.. but that is her Papa!!
Ok I am crying now and I really need to stop.. I am all caught up now and need to get some actual work done!! hahaha dang internet always intervenes...hehehehe
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Day 8 without my boy!!!
Day 8
Ok, I have been trying to come on everyday to post something, just to have a place to put thoughts.. and I figure I would use the time while my boy is away to get in the habit of daily bloggin... it seems to be working..
Today was busy, still is infact and it is now 11:37 p.m. I have been trying to work on homework assingement, but I am tired of gettin assaulted by bugs!! I HATE SUMMER for the simple fact that bugs, flying bugs get in the house!!! The love the computer light and the desk light.. even though the ceiling lights are on, they have to come and land on me!!! aauugghh!! I have this thing with bugs landing on me!! So I am just about to call it a night! I will set my alarm for early and come out and try to get some work done before I go to work tomorrow. If not I am taking my laptop with me to work and with work on my essay during lunch hour.
I texted my boy a few times today.. I am glad that he has a cell phone!
I am stressed about this weekend.. my neice is getting married on Saturday. the wedding is only 120 miles away.. but I have another assingement due Sunday that I NEED to research for! I might swing by the library for an actual book!! that i can take with me and read some when i have the chance.. i can always read chapter 4 in my text book also.. i am sure that there is something in there also about the assingement.
ok, so i blogged!!! yeah me! it is almost midnight, i have the heebee geebbeess due to the flying shits landing on me!!! hahaha
good night sweet world!!! blessings to all who accept my thoughts tonight!!
Ok, I have been trying to come on everyday to post something, just to have a place to put thoughts.. and I figure I would use the time while my boy is away to get in the habit of daily bloggin... it seems to be working..
Today was busy, still is infact and it is now 11:37 p.m. I have been trying to work on homework assingement, but I am tired of gettin assaulted by bugs!! I HATE SUMMER for the simple fact that bugs, flying bugs get in the house!!! The love the computer light and the desk light.. even though the ceiling lights are on, they have to come and land on me!!! aauugghh!! I have this thing with bugs landing on me!! So I am just about to call it a night! I will set my alarm for early and come out and try to get some work done before I go to work tomorrow. If not I am taking my laptop with me to work and with work on my essay during lunch hour.
I texted my boy a few times today.. I am glad that he has a cell phone!
I am stressed about this weekend.. my neice is getting married on Saturday. the wedding is only 120 miles away.. but I have another assingement due Sunday that I NEED to research for! I might swing by the library for an actual book!! that i can take with me and read some when i have the chance.. i can always read chapter 4 in my text book also.. i am sure that there is something in there also about the assingement.
ok, so i blogged!!! yeah me! it is almost midnight, i have the heebee geebbeess due to the flying shits landing on me!!! hahaha
good night sweet world!!! blessings to all who accept my thoughts tonight!!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Day 7
July 7
Today is so much better then yesterday! Yesterday sucked!! From Monday evening to Tuesday morning I had a sinus headache that progressed to a migraine. By the time that I got out of bed yesterday I had already woke up several times throughout the night with my head feeling like it was in a vicegrip. But usually sleep helps this things, not that night!!!
Yesterday morning was a blur of pain and tiredness. I got to work and took both sinus headache pills and migraine pills.. by ten o'clock the pain was gone but I was so out of it. For my lunch hour I leaned back in my chair and slept.
When I got home last night I had to get busy and turn in my first assingment for class. Enviromental Science. The first assingment is just an introduction posting a discussion board thread. Just about done when dad comes out to start dinner. These are the times that I hate having my desk where it is. The radio was on and it was kinda loud. Which usually does not bother me, but it was on the local country station which is staticky.. actaully when the radio is at all stations are staticky!! So I hurried up and got done with my intro and retreated to my bedroom to read chapter 3 in my text book and ended up reading some of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I have only read that book once or twice. I think possibly just once. So this would make twice.
anyway, last night went ok. tonight is the first class chat. The first real assingment is due on Friday so tonight and tomorrow night is going to be reasearch and writing.
I miss my son!! We talked a little bit on Facebook yesterday! A little bit.. like 6 sentences.. but that is ok... I am glad that he is older and that his dad is not a stupid as he was when he was with wife #3. I am also glad that my son does not have to put up with that stepmom anymore!! hehehehe
Ok, time to get to work.
Later all!!!
Today is so much better then yesterday! Yesterday sucked!! From Monday evening to Tuesday morning I had a sinus headache that progressed to a migraine. By the time that I got out of bed yesterday I had already woke up several times throughout the night with my head feeling like it was in a vicegrip. But usually sleep helps this things, not that night!!!
Yesterday morning was a blur of pain and tiredness. I got to work and took both sinus headache pills and migraine pills.. by ten o'clock the pain was gone but I was so out of it. For my lunch hour I leaned back in my chair and slept.
When I got home last night I had to get busy and turn in my first assingment for class. Enviromental Science. The first assingment is just an introduction posting a discussion board thread. Just about done when dad comes out to start dinner. These are the times that I hate having my desk where it is. The radio was on and it was kinda loud. Which usually does not bother me, but it was on the local country station which is staticky.. actaully when the radio is at all stations are staticky!! So I hurried up and got done with my intro and retreated to my bedroom to read chapter 3 in my text book and ended up reading some of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I have only read that book once or twice. I think possibly just once. So this would make twice.
anyway, last night went ok. tonight is the first class chat. The first real assingment is due on Friday so tonight and tomorrow night is going to be reasearch and writing.
I miss my son!! We talked a little bit on Facebook yesterday! A little bit.. like 6 sentences.. but that is ok... I am glad that he is older and that his dad is not a stupid as he was when he was with wife #3. I am also glad that my son does not have to put up with that stepmom anymore!! hehehehe
Ok, time to get to work.
Later all!!!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Day 4 - July 4th
Woke up ok, spent too much time in bed so woke up with slight headache and a backache. The headache was not too bad.. took some meds and it was ok, until after I gave the dogs a bath. Giving Fluffy a bath hurt my hips and made my head hurt more. But as the day went on, it was ok, but the headache came back worse.
Anyway, enough complaining... Kenny called and said that they had fun today playing at the lake. Thats cool... then it dawned on me that I have not spend the last 2 forth of July's with Kenny. Last year he was at Boy Scout camp.
ok, ok, enough i am not making sense tonight because of my head.. just wanted to come on and put some thoughts down...done..
good night
Anyway, enough complaining... Kenny called and said that they had fun today playing at the lake. Thats cool... then it dawned on me that I have not spend the last 2 forth of July's with Kenny. Last year he was at Boy Scout camp.
ok, ok, enough i am not making sense tonight because of my head.. just wanted to come on and put some thoughts down...done..
good night
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Day 3 - Nightmare!!
July 3rd
The start of the third day without Kenny. He sent me a picture message at 4:53 am, but I did not know it until later. He called me at 6:15 am. I answered to talk to him. He did not realize that it was early I would be sleeping. Where he is at it was 8:15. But that is ok, I got to talk to him. They drove through the night to reach Michagan. Even thought they only have one headlight....
Anyway, I was happy to hear from my boy!! I miss him dearly! But being half asleep and missing him is not a good thing.. the combiantion gave me a nightmare...
We (Suzanna, Kenny, and I) were waiting for a show to start. It was some type play or concert. As it with the older kids they don't like to stand around, so Kenny was looking around the area. We were in a market place or store. He had his cell phone, and I told him to stay close and check back every few minutes. For a while it was ok, then the concert opened and we were allowed to go in. There were many people behind us, and it was such a way that we could not wait for kenny to show back up.
He was not answering his phone! When we got to the auditorium he was still not there!! No answer!
so I went to have him paged, and there was too much that I had to do! They could not just page him! There was a form, an actual form!!! that I had to fill out! It was not fun! There was certain stages that had to happen before they could page him. I had to "do some gardening" (I am not sure what this means! but I had to do it!) it was only after this was done that the stage could be clearing and the next implemented.. then we could actually have him paged!
It was at this time that I woke up! I don't like having dreams of Kenny being in danger!! And having him several states away is sooo not fun!!
So, day 3 is underway...
The start of the third day without Kenny. He sent me a picture message at 4:53 am, but I did not know it until later. He called me at 6:15 am. I answered to talk to him. He did not realize that it was early I would be sleeping. Where he is at it was 8:15. But that is ok, I got to talk to him. They drove through the night to reach Michagan. Even thought they only have one headlight....
Anyway, I was happy to hear from my boy!! I miss him dearly! But being half asleep and missing him is not a good thing.. the combiantion gave me a nightmare...
We (Suzanna, Kenny, and I) were waiting for a show to start. It was some type play or concert. As it with the older kids they don't like to stand around, so Kenny was looking around the area. We were in a market place or store. He had his cell phone, and I told him to stay close and check back every few minutes. For a while it was ok, then the concert opened and we were allowed to go in. There were many people behind us, and it was such a way that we could not wait for kenny to show back up.
He was not answering his phone! When we got to the auditorium he was still not there!! No answer!
so I went to have him paged, and there was too much that I had to do! They could not just page him! There was a form, an actual form!!! that I had to fill out! It was not fun! There was certain stages that had to happen before they could page him. I had to "do some gardening" (I am not sure what this means! but I had to do it!) it was only after this was done that the stage could be clearing and the next implemented.. then we could actually have him paged!
It was at this time that I woke up! I don't like having dreams of Kenny being in danger!! And having him several states away is sooo not fun!!
So, day 3 is underway...
Friday, July 2, 2010
Day 2 without Kenny
July 2nd..
Last night went ok, I was hurting! Not because Kenny is gone, but because my body does not like to have its monthly thing!! One big constant cramp!! Hurts to sit, lie down, get up, walk, sit back down... everything!! The last year or so Midol has not touched the pain really at all. Tried the white willow bark,, it dulled it a little, but not much.
Anyway, enough complaining!! Kenny called last night! YEAH!! I thought that they were heading straight to Michagan, but I guess they changed the plans. They were in Cheyenne WY. Heading to Michagan today. Kenny says it has been ok so far. Good, I am glad to hear that!
The trip to Michagan will be better then the drive over to WY. His dad can not take the other two younger one (Kenny 1/2 brother and sister). So it will just be Kenny and Mia in the back seat.
It was quiet in the house last night, I miss my bud! I expect that here in the next couple of days it is giong to get worse.... I am used to him going camping with the boy scouts and being gone for a few nights, but a month is different!!!!
We watched the Lovely Bones last night. It was different, and thought provoking. A good movie! Speaking of movies - Eclispe!!!! yeah baby!! Ok, so I love stories about vampires, werewolves, dragons and all sorts of mythical beings! But if I had to chose Team Edward or Team Jacob.. I would def go with Team Jacob!! Damn them guys are stacked!!! and tanned!! whew!!! I love the coloring on Native Americans to begin with, then throw some muscled men in the picture!!! (pant, pant) LOL listen to me!! Hey I may be a lesbian, but I appreciate the fine male form! hahahaha
1, Vin Diesel
2, Hugh Jackman
3, Matthew McConaughey
4, Sam Elliot
to name a few.... hehehe
Last night went ok, I was hurting! Not because Kenny is gone, but because my body does not like to have its monthly thing!! One big constant cramp!! Hurts to sit, lie down, get up, walk, sit back down... everything!! The last year or so Midol has not touched the pain really at all. Tried the white willow bark,, it dulled it a little, but not much.
Anyway, enough complaining!! Kenny called last night! YEAH!! I thought that they were heading straight to Michagan, but I guess they changed the plans. They were in Cheyenne WY. Heading to Michagan today. Kenny says it has been ok so far. Good, I am glad to hear that!
The trip to Michagan will be better then the drive over to WY. His dad can not take the other two younger one (Kenny 1/2 brother and sister). So it will just be Kenny and Mia in the back seat.
It was quiet in the house last night, I miss my bud! I expect that here in the next couple of days it is giong to get worse.... I am used to him going camping with the boy scouts and being gone for a few nights, but a month is different!!!!
We watched the Lovely Bones last night. It was different, and thought provoking. A good movie! Speaking of movies - Eclispe!!!! yeah baby!! Ok, so I love stories about vampires, werewolves, dragons and all sorts of mythical beings! But if I had to chose Team Edward or Team Jacob.. I would def go with Team Jacob!! Damn them guys are stacked!!! and tanned!! whew!!! I love the coloring on Native Americans to begin with, then throw some muscled men in the picture!!! (pant, pant) LOL listen to me!! Hey I may be a lesbian, but I appreciate the fine male form! hahahaha
1, Vin Diesel
2, Hugh Jackman
3, Matthew McConaughey
4, Sam Elliot
to name a few.... hehehe
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Day 1 without my son
Ok, yes he left yesterday, but I did get to see and spend time yesterday.. so we are calling today day 1.
I miss my boy! He is my only child! He has more of my heart than anyone knows. Even though we fight over chores and homework, I do love him!
At least now Kenny is old enough that I don't have to worry too much about how his dad is taking care of him.
I woke up this morning knowing he was not in the house, knowing that he was many miles away, knowing that he was in a different state. Knowing and not liking!!
I really hope that he has fun. I really hope that his dad treats him fairly.
Ok, I am done with this for right now. Might come on tonight and blog again.
I miss my boy! He is my only child! He has more of my heart than anyone knows. Even though we fight over chores and homework, I do love him!
At least now Kenny is old enough that I don't have to worry too much about how his dad is taking care of him.
I woke up this morning knowing he was not in the house, knowing that he was many miles away, knowing that he was in a different state. Knowing and not liking!!
I really hope that he has fun. I really hope that his dad treats him fairly.
Ok, I am done with this for right now. Might come on tonight and blog again.
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