A pic that a like.

So very true!!

The last few weeks....

Working long hours the first two weeks on December in order to take off the 17th and 18th to take my dad to another town to have surgery to fix his fractured sternum. Then the stress of those two days. Then the complete exhaustion, both mentally and physically. I am still trying to get my level of energy back up.

I wanted to come on here and post a big blog about the last two weeks, then sat here not sure how to start or what to type.. just know that I am glad that my dad is no longer in pain with every movement.

Today he has been montioring his oxygen levels with a pulse oximeter that we bought at the store last night. The numbers have stayed between 94 and 97 all day.  The day after this surgery, before they released him from the hospital they were concerned about his oxygen levels, so they sent him home with oxygen tanks and a machine! The machine that has a hook up for his CPAP machine at night. 

Anyway, I am going to go and throw some frozen pizza in the oven for dinner. And maybe make so more coffee. Need to kick my brain into gear and finish some homework.

Later all and Blessed Be
Tina

Relieved, but hesitant

Yesterday I posted a blog about how I feel like my partner does not 'know me' anymore. Well, tonight we were talking about things (not about last night, yet)... ok, let me set the story...

She was out smoking in the garage, I went to say hi.. and she said that she seen something outside. I could not see anything.. I made a joke about it being a fairie. She said no, I don't believe in them. Ok.

A few minutes later same thing, went out to talk to her and she said that the pair of eyes was closer but as soom as the door opened it was gone. I still could not see anything. 

In the kitchen a few minutes later, she confessed that she did believe in faries but did not want people to think she was crazy. I told her, that off everyone to talk to about those things it would be ME. I do believe! So she told me that the eyes were too big to be fairie or brownie. I said maybe a "sock" troll, since I had just put the socks in the wash.  She thought I was joking, I was not.

 Anyway, we had a few words. And I finally told her that just like last night I feel that she does not 'know me' anymore. If she did she would know that I believe in creatures, and that I don't freak out about certain things. The one thing lately that I have freaked out about is her being home for me, when she is home. Which means dont constantly talk/text  to your friends. 

I did suggest to her tonight, that maybe if she talked to me as much as she did her friends she would be able to remember 'who I am'.

I hope that what I said to her tonight sunk in. I don't like living with someone who treats me like a stranger but says they love me.  The emotional anguish on top of everything else lately is so not fun.

Well, I am going to go and put the socks in the dryer and I hope that if the troll takes on, it is one of mine that has a hole in it. I would willing sacrafice one.

Tina

a stranger.. but there in bed next to me

sometimes, especially in the past few months,, I feel like my partner of over 5 years does not know me anymore...

I want to run away... I NEED a break!

have ya ever had the thought about running away from it all... well I want to.. this week has been shit,, and it is only Wednesday! Don't get me wrong, I love all the people I live with.. but I need a break! I need a break from being the only one to do dishes, I need a break from having to juggle homework vs. dinner and dishes! Last night was the topping on the cake! I blew up! Did I get homework done? NO I did not! Did dishes get done? NO, I was busy with a class chat, and fixing dinner! at the same time! It was when the boy decided to yell at me about laundry, when I am trying to listen to the teacher, that my night when from stressfull to terrible! anyway, I have a migraine today, but am here at work... lovely... (being sarcastic people... it is not a lovely day!)

 

oh, last night was one of those occasions that if I did not pull away and leave, it would have been more than just a whooping on the buttocks...

 

so, dad and I went to a restraunt had some cake and iced tea (him) pie, brandy septerater & some blended irish cream drink (me). after the irish cream drink i was relaxed enough to go home.

Temper Tantrum

Usually we have a space heater like this.

The is Emma aka Heater Hog

So the title of this blog is temper tantrum

What happened is that my dad is here and he has a 360degree heater.

So we unplugged the one above

And plugged in his:

Emma was NOT impressed!

I call this look:

"Really??? I can't not lay in front of THIS?!"

She then decided to NOT LOOK at me!

Really Emma? It is going to be like that?

She then turned her back to me:

She kinda turned when I called her name.

She was TOTALLY throwing a temper tantrum!

Needless to say I had to go and get the other heater,

and plug it back in.

We only use the 360 one everynow and then.

The white heater is the back in use.

Emma is happy again.

Our Turkey Day.

So. The ex husband is in town visiting his family for the holiday.  Brought his new girlfriend. I don't really care one way of the other about him or his girl friend, but he needs to spend time with his first born child. Who just so happens to be my son, who is 15 now. 

First I had to deal with drama from the wife (mine), she does not like my ex... um news flash NEITHER DO I!! hence the reason why we are not together... don't give me a bunch of stress, I am stressing too!!

Then, he asks if I could bring the boy out to his dads house the next day. I should have said no, but being polite I said I would. The next day dawns.... which so happens to be Thursday aka. Thanksgiving Day aka. Turkey Day.  The boy took forever to wake up and by the time he did, I was entrenched in cleaning the kitchen, starting the turkey, and cooking a Gluten Free Pumpkin Drop Cake:

I had lots of dishes to do as the pots and pans have been stacking the last couple of days... that is another reason why the dish that this cake (and the suffing) is cooked in were picked up at Family Dollar. $1.50 for two pans... steel! haha

Then it came time and I had to get the Gluten Free Stuffing in  the oven.

The last few years when roasting a turkey I also make a stock of the neck and other inards that come with the bird. I don't use those organs just the stock to make the stuffing. I had to do two stuffings this year. One gluten free and one regular boxed.

I did cheat and make instant potatoes. But anyway... my turkey turned out awesome!!

It was so moist.... still moist later when I when to put it away...

Our dinner was not much more than just turkey, potatoes, stuffing, and cranberry sauce... but no one complained. What a good day.

All in all, the boy never did make it to his dads famiily. We tried calliing, but his phone was either off or dead. 

So today, he calls and then coming by and has the nerve to ask if I will take the boy all the way out to his dads, so I said no. I am busy with homework and housework today. I feel proud of myself!!

T