auugghh = bills!!

yikes! the first mortgage payment is due in 3 days!!! I am dealing with a very upset stomach knowing that there is no way I am going to be able to pay all the bills.... oh well, one day at a time...

re-dedication

I started this blog as a place to put thoughts down, I have been lacking in that aspect ~ well not in the thought area... oh no!! LOTS of thoughts going through this brain!! haha ~ no, I have been lacking in the logging in and posting area.. so I am going to challenge myself to try to post a thought everyday, until the end of July. Maybe if I get in the habit, I will want to continue.

So here goes:

July is going to be very busy!! We are still trying to move, dang do we need to find some strong men to help us!! haha anyway, not sure if we are going to be moved by the end of week or not. Kenny goes to Boy Scout camp early Saturday, so we have been working on getting his room moved. His bed is over at the new house, (don't worry the kid has been sleeping in the living room for over a month!!!! a story for a different day! haha) he has spent the last couple of days packing up the rest of his junk, um, stuff... dang that kid has a lot of stuff! haha.. I spend the last two days packing up my computer desk.. dang I have a lot of stuff!! hahahaha oh, and also taking my wife to the ER. she kept saying her side was hurting and that is was her pancreas and or diverticulitis, so I told her to get online and do some web searches to see what can help! I have told her that cinnamon and papaya help with upset stomachs.. so she goes on and finds out that the pancreas is on the other side, so it has to be her gallbladder. It told her if she is worried call the nurse at the hospital and see if they think she should go in. The nurse told her that if her pain got worse than yes go in. About half an hour later, there we were! SIX HOURS later!!! all she got was some pain meds and meds for upset stomach, they could not do an ultrasound as she ate earlier that day. She is supposed to follow up with normal doc today.

anyway, wow!!! that though turned out to be along one!! And I still have not even mentioned schooling - jeesh!!! Ok, I have been going to school for my bachelors of science in accounting for over two years now. Financially, I have only been able to take one class at a time. Now, that I need to go and find a part time job to help with bills, the school tells me that I can do 2 classes at a time! I really want to try to do this (the 2 classes) if I can, I will done with the bachelors by March 2012! So that is way July is going to be busy!! July 1, make sure Kenny is packed for camp and help the scouts pack trailer. July 2, EARLY they are leaving! July 3, two classes start - Advanced Accounting and Managerial Accounting Practices. Am I going to be able to keep my 4.0 GPA going strong? Am I going to be able to pay all the bills with out getting a part time job? I don't know the answer to these questions!!

I just have to remember to BREATHE!!

Today is Today

Today is Today.. it does not help to worry about tomorrow, next week, next month or on... Think, plan, and dream, but not dwell, fear, or have anxiety about what may come or what may go away. Today is Today. Remember to Breathe. Stay Balanced. Blessed Be.

I posted this as a status an facebook awhile back, and friends really liked it. I want to use the photoshop program and do something with it.

TV trays can be DEADLY!!

Ok, I am not a fan of TV trays to begin with, but they are a convenience item. They are used in my house regularly. Yes, I admit we are not a family that sits down at the dining room table to eat. To many different work schedules, as well as cats that have their food up there. (yeah disgusting!!! not going to be when we move into our own place!!!!) so anyway, the tv trays....

Last night I after closed the living room blinds, I stepped back and turned I was going to grab a bowl and spoon to take to the kitchen. My right foot got stuck in the chair (the foot rest part.. don't ask why or how- it just did). My momentum was going though and so I was now going forward and DOWN! There was a tv tray right there, it collapsed under me. I almost got impaled by the leg. My left knee slammed down into the carpet. I am not sure where my right hand come down at, but my middle finger and knuckle were/are hurting. My left wrist connected with a stored play pen, right between the pinkie and ring finger knuckles. I will save you on all the language that I said in the following 10 seconds, than the pain of my left knee registered. Tears, more cuss words, tears, more cuss words... by that time Suzanna was over to help me. She straighten the tv tray, and was waiting for me to recover. It took a minute, but I got up.

SO.............I HURT!!! Here it is the next day... I can feel a bruise on the right leg, my left knee is tender and has a bruise.. (I bruise QUICKLY!!) My left wrist hurts, just plain hurts. It hurts to type too much (so what do I do... BLOG.. *shaking my head*) Both of my wrists hurt as well as my shoulders and my neck. But the worst is my stomach. I am serious when I said I was almost impaled!! I have a big lump and bruise about an inch under my rib and about 3 inches to the left of center. I am sitting up pretty dang straight, as it hurts to slouch..

anyway, there is my story and I am sticking to it...

Tuesday, Tuesday... May 24

Well, here is it time passed and it has been awhile. I try to get on more often but it just does not happen that way. Anyway just wanted to do a quick Hello to my blog. And might as well do the quick ponder in my brain also.....

Paying the mortgage.

I know that we wanted and needed a place to live, but I still worry about paying all the bills. On thing which I am not sure about yet, is NO t.v. - yes I will miss some shows. But with internet these days, you are only a day behind.

So there that is my ponder for the day.

yes it is Mothers Day.

I seriously need to post more blogs. I enoy reading others but then I never think to post something on mine. So here I am, as the title says, yes it is Mothers Day. Up until today I wanted to go and buy some flowers to put on my moms burial site.. I have problems calling it a grave. So it is a burial site. Oh, as I was saying when I woke up this morning I decided that I did not want to go and buy flowers. I don't want sappiness today! I logged on long enough to facebook to say that. Went and played Flutter, by the time I was done two of my friends agreed that this day is not a happy day for all. I was fine until some put sappiness into their comment!! Granted I do love her, being Suzanna's mom, it is just that ever since my mom was really sick and then passed on, it has been really hard for me to call someone a mom. No one can replace my mom! I don't want anyone to!!!! If you knew my mom, you would know that she was a straight foward person, but she also had lots of character to her also.

Here is a poem that I wrote about her...


Dedicated to my mom,
Mom,
I still feel you around the house,
At times, I hear you laughing,

Every time I see a mouse in the house,
I remember the time you threw your books at one. (and killed one)

I miss watching movies with you,
As you would drive us all nuts by rewinding,
And rewinding your favorite parts. (by the way Kenny has started to do this! haha)

You are a hero to me, the bravery you showed
While fighting a losing battle, I will never forget!!

~~~~~~~~~~~
Eight years ago on November 11th my mom passed away after a long hard fight with cancer. I miss her dearly. (it is nine years now! this November will be ten)

Mom
I Love You,
I Miss You
Tina