Day 3 - Nightmare!!

July 3rd

The start of the third day without Kenny. He sent me a picture message at 4:53 am, but I did not know it until later. He called me at 6:15 am. I answered to talk to him. He did not realize that it was early I would be sleeping. Where he is at it was 8:15. But that is ok, I got to talk to him. They drove through the night to reach Michagan. Even thought they only have one headlight....

Anyway, I was happy to hear from my boy!! I miss him dearly! But being half asleep and missing him is not a good thing.. the combiantion gave me a nightmare...

We (Suzanna, Kenny, and I) were waiting for a show to start. It was some type play or concert. As it with the older kids they don't like to stand around, so Kenny was looking around the area. We were in a market place or store. He had his cell phone, and I told him to stay close and check back every few minutes. For a while it was ok, then the concert opened and we were allowed to go in. There were many people behind us, and it was such a way that we could not wait for kenny to show back up.

He was not answering his phone! When we got to the auditorium he was still not there!! No answer!

so I went to have him paged, and there was too much that I had to do! They could not just page him! There was a form, an actual form!!! that I had to fill out! It was not fun! There was certain stages that had to happen before they could page him. I had to "do some gardening" (I am not sure what this means! but I had to do it!) it was only after this was done that the stage could be clearing and the next implemented.. then we could actually have him paged!

It was at this time that I woke up! I don't like having dreams of Kenny being in danger!! And having him several states away is sooo not fun!!

So, day 3 is underway...

Day 2 without Kenny

July 2nd..

Last night went ok, I was hurting! Not because Kenny is gone, but because my body does not like to have its monthly thing!! One big constant cramp!! Hurts to sit, lie down, get up, walk, sit back down... everything!! The last year or so Midol has not touched the pain really at all. Tried the white willow bark,, it dulled it a little, but not much.

Anyway, enough complaining!! Kenny called last night! YEAH!! I thought that they were heading straight to Michagan, but I guess they changed the plans. They were in Cheyenne WY. Heading to Michagan today. Kenny says it has been ok so far. Good, I am glad to hear that!

The trip to Michagan will be better then the drive over to WY. His dad can not take the other two younger one (Kenny 1/2 brother and sister). So it will just be Kenny and Mia in the back seat.

It was quiet in the house last night, I miss my bud! I expect that here in the next couple of days it is giong to get worse.... I am used to him going camping with the boy scouts and being gone for a few nights, but a month is different!!!!

We watched the Lovely Bones last night. It was different, and thought provoking. A good movie! Speaking of movies - Eclispe!!!! yeah baby!! Ok, so I love stories about vampires, werewolves, dragons and all sorts of mythical beings! But if I had to chose Team Edward or Team Jacob.. I would def go with Team Jacob!! Damn them guys are stacked!!! and tanned!! whew!!! I love the coloring on Native Americans to begin with, then throw some muscled men in the picture!!! (pant, pant) LOL listen to me!! Hey I may be a lesbian, but I appreciate the fine male form! hahahaha
1, Vin Diesel
2, Hugh Jackman
3, Matthew McConaughey
4, Sam Elliot
to name a few.... hehehe

Day 1 without my son

Ok, yes he left yesterday, but I did get to see and spend time yesterday.. so we are calling today day 1.

I miss my boy! He is my only child! He has more of my heart than anyone knows. Even though we fight over chores and homework, I do love him!

At least now Kenny is old enough that I don't have to worry too much about how his dad is taking care of him.

I woke up this morning knowing he was not in the house, knowing that he was many miles away, knowing that he was in a different state. Knowing and not liking!!

I really hope that he has fun. I really hope that his dad treats him fairly.

Ok, I am done with this for right now. Might come on tonight and blog again.

Monday, Monday

hhmm.. i sit and think often why I even started a blog when I hardly ever write in it.... I enjoy reading others blogs.. so I need to try to got something down at least every other day..

Here are thoughts for today (and yesterday):

I really hate it when the ex-hubby comes to town. Not that I hate him- gotten over him! Long time ago! No what I hate is that if Kenny wants to visit with him while he is here, I usually end up taking him over to my ex-father in laws place. I don't like my ex-FIL. He is a prejudised, egotisitcal, hilly billy ass!! excuse my language! But I really don't like this man! Kenny is 12 years old and I can probably add up the total time he has spent with this grandson to maybe a total of a week!! that is adding all the minutes here are there! But other grandkids who have parents who like to kiss ass... get to spend more time! Sorry if I am not an alcohalic who thinks going to the bars constitues a family get together!
They used to say "oh, we just had a barbeque.. you should have come... brought Kenny, would have loved to have seen him.." or "oh, we went to the lake last weekend too bad you did not bring Kenny out..." "next time you will have to bring him out and you guys can have fun also" you see how it was all past tense???? the was one time where we notified at the last minutes that something was going on.. so I am supposed to drop everything to go and spend time with these people?! I don't think so!!

Funny this is.. the ex-sister in law lives right up the street! she used to watch Kenny for me... now she seems to hate Kenny! I don't know what Kenny ever did, but it is bull shit! He used to ask how come he could never go to XXX's anymore. Now he has gotten over her also.

Yesterday, Kenny was with his dad from 11am till 9pm... I had to take Kenny out the exFIL.. make a quick gettaway.. luckily when I went to pick him up the exFIL and his wife were in bed, so everyone was next door... the ex tells me that his dad got all bent out of shape becuase Kenny has a cell phone and called him.... I told the ex "SO?" WTF??? he is 12 (almost 13 yikes!!) so is he upset because he called his grandpa or upset because he has a phone??

Ok, so enought ranting and raving about the ex and his stupid idiotic family...

whew, I feel better getting all that off my mind...

later and blessings to all who read this...

Tina

Looking forward to having another three day weekend!!

I am taking Friday off!! We are leaving here Thursday evening, going to Reno. Friday morning leaving Reno, to get to Glendale Oregon by 7p.m. for a graduation. Then Saturday a bday party. Drive all the way on Sunday!!

Not looking forward to driving soo much, but looking forward to visiting family, eating sushi, and getting out of town for a few days!!

Stupid Movie!

Sometimes I don't like sitting out in the living room, because the kid is watching tv.. usually stupid cartoon or disney shows... so glad he is off of iCarly and hanah montana.... any way, he just had us sit through one of the Beetohvan movies.. i think #5... stupid!!!!!

My dogs

This is Fluffy.. yes a Black Lab named Fluffy (that is what you get when you let a 3 year old name an animal)

This is Nala, the little spoiled dog who I fought to be able to get for over a year... and guess what?? I am not her human.. Her list of humans is #1 Dad, #2 Suzanna, then me.. But I love her!!

How can't love that face?!